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Its always amazing to see how people change in such (relatively) short time…
We may haven’t seen them for quite a while….we used to know whatever things happen in her life…but then.
Can we blame ourselves for not being there for them when they feel all those factors making them change?
Can I blame my self for not telling her that she has done wrong and she need to fix it?
Can I blame my self for being a person that I am who whenever some thing wrong happen I will directly tell and advice my opinion on it?
She cant tell me her secret coz she fear of me…
So instead she just keep on silent…letting herself deeper into the wrong path she made.
She don’t have any boundaries now...and that what makes her path go even to more wrong.
I wonder whats in her mind? Does she feel that she is already a bad girl by already having lost her virginity and then its not the only time she have sex? And is this what leads her to what she become today?
Or does she really feels comfortable of what she become right now?...but if she does…why would she never smoke in front of me and the rest of the gangs?
I love her and I care for her…and that’s why I always have the urge to tell her “hey!...i know what u have done in the past…I know that you have been lying to me that day…But don’t mind that...now You have to realize he has been a BAD influence in your life!...YOU have change a lot…aren’t you feel sorry for your mom and dad? Are you comfortable living in lies?Please…think again about your life…we never getting younger…and death is always watching over us…aren’t you afraid at all?”
I really really want to say those words…but I cant…
Why do a lot of people living in lies?
I’m not a saint…I also make mistakes…But I try my best to fix it…and that’s why I’m married now…So I wont make that mistakes anymore…

Embracing the pain....

I'm only 7 weeks pregnant...yet a lot of uneasyness and hardness...un-comfortable things already happen to me...
This may be a complain...but its also a form of worriness...is it normal...is it okay for him or her...
even the tiniest pain makes me wondering whats happen down there...
but then a good friend remind me...
Just embrace it...dont worry too much...u'll child will tell you if something wrong...
embrace the pain...enjoy it...coz doesnt it the main reason why heaven is under our feet?
and I suddenly remember one ayat

"Dan Kami perintahkan kepada manusia (berbuat baik) kepada dua orang ibu-bapanya; ibunya telah mengandungnya dalam keadaan lemah yang bertambah-tambah, dan menyapihnya dalam dua tahun. Bersyukurlah kepadaKu dan kepada dua orang ibu bapakmu, hanya kepada-Kulah kembalimu.” (Al Qur’an, 31:14)

Then its already being predicted...being pregnant will make u weaker...
and now...i remember my Mom....my dearest mom...

She gone through the same thing when having me and my 3 other siblings...
I would say only female that can really understand how big our debt is to our mom...because female also having the same experience when she get pregnant
Love u mom....

So to summarize it....Just embrace the uneasyness and discomfortness....its worth it..

Newbie!!!

There’s a newbie in Da House…
He followed me wherever I go…
Sometime he made me sick and don’t want to eat
And Sometime he made me eat too much

But I need to be very careful of what I eat :(
Cant eat sushi…I love them
Cant eat too much sweet food….I love chocolates
Have to drink a lot of milk….

We called him “Kaka”
Hoping there will be “adek-adek”
We talk to him a lot at night…
Especially my husband….
We try to listen to him at night…

Every pray that I have after Sholat…
Is to have “Kakak” Safe, Health, and Perfect…
5 Weeks and counting :)

Doakan yaaa :)

Ayat -ayat Cinta ..The Movie

Okay...dengan malu gue nyatakan kalau gue belum baca novelnya...ga sempet...ampe sekarang aja ada kali 10 buku yang udah gue beli dari kapan tau tapi ampe sekarang belum dibaca...
and pada saat gue ada waktu untuk baca, ternyata buku yg punya adek gue itu lagi dipinjem Tante gue...dan saat tante ku janji mau kembalikan saat nikahan gue..eeh tyt dipinjem ama keponakan tetangganya karena dia lagi tanggung buat skripsi nya...dduuuhh susah bener...akhirnya karena ga sabar...beli lagi deh tuh buku...semoga ga jadi mubazir....

Anyway..sebelum baca buku itu, (yg beli suami bukan gue) kita berdua plus mama nonton tuh film...kenapa sama Mama? karena mama pengen banget nonton nih fim karena dia suka banget ama Bukunya...dan Mama itu tergolong orang yg jarang mau nonton bioskop..eeh selai itu kemarennya dia pas mau nonton di Megaria tyt ga kebagian tiket padahal di Megaria udah 2 studio...so..there we are the three of us...Mertua, Anak dan Menantu :)

And I enjoy this movie Very much...and one thing That (at least for now) yang akan gue inget selalu (mungkin kata-katanya beda ama di Buku) yaitu :
"Sabar dan Ikhlas.....Islam adalah tentang Sabar dan Ikhlas"