Bersyukur..(english version)

Bukan berniat sombong atau apapun..tapi ini udah ditulis duluan untuk ditaruh di blog versi inggris gue...karena males ganti lagi...jadi yaaaa....ini aja di copy and paste....

People always say: Be thankful for what you have got…coz many people don’t have what you have…
And this sentence has been the basic principal in order for us to be grateful of all God’s gifts..
But I just realize one thing…We also have to be grateful for what we DON’T HAVE..for instance..we should be grateful that we don’t have a disease or not being sick, or we don’t have any accident, or we don’t have any earthquakes or other national disasters or we don’t get such a lousy and loser boyfriend..hehe..and lots of stuff that we sometimes wish we don’t have AFTER we have it?confusing?..well so do I..
But I was just thinking about this when I got a terrible headache that I used to have regularly months before…after it didn’t came up for sometime, the headache attacking me again and I was thinking that maybe this is because I don’t embrace and thanking God for my “lost of pain”…but its just a thoughts…

Trying to think much deeper…there are A LOT of things that God given us but we seldom forget to appreciate it..here’s a list of 5 first things we should be grateful from the beginning of morning (at least this morning when I write this blog).
Thank God we can still breathing (this is MOST Importantant)
Thank God its not raining Hard outside
Thank God I still have clothes to wear to office
Thank God my mom already making me tea and something to eat
Thank God my dad still have a car to drive me to office
Thank God I have a brother that call my dad telling him that I forgot to bring my cellphone
Thank God there are no traffic because we went early
Thank God I arrive at the office safe and sounds..
Thank God I don’t have to wait too long to get the lift (elevator)
Thank God its FRIDAY….hehehehe

I get too excited that I put even 10 things above..and I truly believe I can still manage to list down more things in that list….but not enough time and space..
Hope that I can be a better person everyday… =)

My Birthday

Fyi, mine is last 27th of oct…

Well..nothing special..only kinda feel I’m getting old…
And come to think about my age..its almost a quarter of a century..and what have I done, what have a gain in life..not just career wise but life in general…
I do proud of who I am now..but is it enough? Or have I live my life fully?
All this time I tried to live mine without having any regret I do make mistake, I’m just a human…but I never want to regret it..well at least don’t be in despair for a long time…being sad is fine but dont be miserable…coz come to think about it there are lots of people that are much more unfortunate so, stop whining!!...

But the question now..have I learn from mistake?i may not regretting it, but have I learn not to do the same mistake?

Anyway..thats a question that I myself have to try finding the answer..but a part from my introspection about decision I made, I surely don regret having accepted MISE..not because of the lessons and assignment..but because of the friends I have…especially the SEAns..and more specifically right now for Angeli and Inca for giving such a wonderful gift…
But I generally think my SEAns friend are simply the best…maybe because we have quite a similar culture that its very easy to be best friends..dont really care about the reasons..but I just love my SEA’s friend….

Hope we All see each other on module 4!!...

I Hate You (supposed to be written on the 4th of Oct)

bukan berniat rasis karena yang gue benci itu bukan karena SARA nya or something like that,..tapi karena attitude tuh orang!!!!..... the following are my words to you mister TP!!!! eh...lo kan asmen...bertingkah kayak asmen doooongggg...jangan mentang-menatang mau keliatan bagus dimata orang apa-apa nanya...mencoba bersikap proaktif tapi kok ketauan ga pentingnya gituuuu!!!.... ASMEN tapi ga bisa apa-apa...semua lempar ke anak buah atau lempar ke orang lain... baru nemu sedikit masalah udah manggil orang lain...ga pernah kenal kata-kata yang namanya USAHA ya????? pantes ga sih lo jadi ASMEN????? tapi kalo mau diliat segi positifnya...terima kasih karena atas keberadaan elo dan kelakuanlo yang kayak gitu..gue dah bisa memperjelas my goal in the future dalam MISE ini..yaitu GUE GA MAU JADI ASSISTEN MANAGER KAYAK ELO!!!!!.... semoga bentuk tulisan kayak gini masih dianggap bersabar di bulan puasa,..karena kan ditumpahkan dalam tulisan.........

pujian dan kesombongan

mending mana, jadi orang sombong atau jadi orang rendah diri???selama ini sih gue selalu menjawab mending jadi orang rendah diri,...karena di Al-Quran disebutkan kalau orang sombong mencium bau surga aja ga akan bisa...sedangkan mengenai orang yang rendah diri, disebutkan hanya sebatas: Allah tidak menyukai orang yang rendah diri.
tapi emang menjadi tidak sombong itu ssssuuuuuussssaaaaahhhhnya minta ampun daaaahhhh....
teringat suatu cerita tentang Abu bakar, sahabat rasulullah yang mana pada masanya menjadi khalifah dulu pernah melempas segenggam tanah ke mulut seseorang karena orang etrsebut memuji dia....Menurut dia, pujian itu menjerumuskan dia, bukannya membantu dia dengan demikian dia sangat tidak suka dipuji...
Jaman sekarang..mana bisa gue main lempar tanah ke orang yg muji gue?dan jaman sekarang bukannya waspada terhadap pujian gue malah mengharapkan pujian...
emang susah ya hidup dijaman dimana orang yang menjadi pimpinan agama kita, yang seharusnya menjadi panutan kita sudah tidak ada...
waktu semakin mengikis keindahan Agama Islam...
manusia semakin menepis...kepatuhan terhadap Allah...
Dan ini gue akui...karena gue juga satu diantara jutaan manusia...seiring dengan waktu yang telah mengikis standar agama gue...nilai-nilai itu telah berubah, telah menjadi lebih toleran..sehingga sesuatu yang salah semakin lama berubah menjadi sesuatu yang biasa dan untuk seterusnya menjadi sesuatu yang dianggap bener...
Tuhan...aku telah jauh dariMu..seberapa usaha ku untuk mendekat kepadaMu tetapi godaan itu tetap datang dan aku kembali kalah..Tuhan...berilah aku kesempatan untuk bisa memulai kembali langkah baru untuk mendekat kepada Mu..dan berilah aku kekuatan untuk bisa tetep menuju kepadaMu tanpa mengalami kekalahan...
Ampunilah aku ya Tuhan...atas segala dosa-dosa ku...